Aquilonia

Far, far away a long, long time ago
From the dawn of time, a king shall rise

Black, on the snowy horizon
hundreds of stallions are riding
Sun beams breaking trough the clouds are shining
on the swords of their riders
They bear a standard of the blackest steel
with two snakes facing each other
The symbol of a new born religion,
rising to crush all the others

Riding like the cold winter wind
Killing and wading through gore
Their mission, by the name of their lord
is the search for the purest steel
Spilling sacred life's blood
and quenching a power mad thirst for the mightiest
of might, They ride!

The riders of Tulsha doom

Ave domine! Ave domine!

By barbarian strengh and Cimmerian pride
Aquilona's crown shall one day be mine
By barbarian strengh and Cimmerian pride
Aquilona's crown shall one day be mine

No survivor has stood in their way
but aboy with hate in his eyes
This boy will grow stronger and stronger each day
to be ready to fight
A man who someday will be a great king
by his own hand and will for revenge
To crush the riders who brought the snakes
on that day when snow became red

He'll be riding like the cold winter wind
Killing and wading through gore
His destiny, by the name of himself
is to bear a jeweled crown
Spilling evil life's blood
and quenching the thirst for revenge
he's feeling inside, He rides!

The conqueror, the barbarian
who one day shall be king
In lakes of blood his enemies are drowning

He'll be riding like the cold winter wind
Killing and wading through gore
His destiny, by the name of himself
is to bear a jeweled crown
Spilling evil life's blood
and quenching the thirst for revenge
he's feeling inside, He rides!

Spartan Workout

I am on week 3 of this Workout and I already lost 8 lbs.

This workout TEARS YOU UP... ughh.. the pain.. but it will all be worth it in the end.

I made this PDF of the workout itself.

We will be upping the reps towards the end.

http://frank.pangaeagames.com/SpartanWorkout.pdf

Come on People!

I am growing little patience with people that suffer from ego problems, delusions of grandure, and people who bitch constantly.

No one wants to hear how bad ass you THINK you are.. or what you THINK you know.

And its ok and normal to have problems... we all do.. everyone in this world that i have met has had problems with work, jobs, family, drugs, opposite sex, relationships, appearance, self esteem, friends, etc.

And its even OK to tell us about your problems from time to time. But if everything you say or post has to do with how shitty you think everything is and you start to sound like a broken record. And who the fuck wants to hear that? I mean.. I understand life is bad... and I realize that Ages 17-20 are the hardest years of anyones life. Out of school, no direction in life, having to get a job, affording rent, missing old friends in high school, relationships breaking up. Yes .. it sucks.. and we all are aware of it.. It just kinda sickens me to see the same posts over and over and over and over and over.


Calm the fuck down people, swallow your pains, and stand up.. suck it up.. and move on. Its called LIFE!

Trust only yourself

People give hope and trust into other people too much.

As I said before Trust takes years to build and only seconds to destroy.

People give trust initially to people they feel they should trust.. but as they get more experienced in life they will realize that it is always safer to let other earn their trust.. as trust is something that is too fragile to just give away. Cause if the careless break it, it hurts you more than them. Its like constantly handing your heart to strangers on the street.

Cause no matter how much you think you know someone ... you never really know them.

Everyone has sides of themselves they would NEVER show others. This also means you. Do you think that would make them except from that rule.

Everyone inherently is selfish... we are in certain ways.. I am selfish.. you are selfish.. we are all selfish.

We all want what makes ourselves feel good or happy. That is selfish to some degree. People would even punish themselves by allowing themselves to be drug through a bed a razor blade if they knew that they could be happy by the time it is all over.

People will eventually let you down. People will tell you what you want to hear. There have been times you told other what they wanted to hear. Why would they be different. I am not saying it happens all the time but depending on the situation and what the other person wants.. that would determine the degree.

The ONLY people you can really see as a true friend are ones that have nothing to gain from you.

If for any reason you are giving to them, supporting them constantly, giving them compliments, o r being the blunt of their jokes to make them feel better about themselves, they are not your friends.

Dependency is a sickness, dependency is a weakness and the doom of all who rely on it.

The only person in this world that is truly your friend is “yourself” please do not betray that one life long friend.. do not lie to yourself and do not undersell yourself.

The Secret = SCAM

I just saw "The Secret" and wow. As one said, "People seem to have one of two reactions to The Secret. Reaction one: “This is BS.” Reaction two: “This just cleared up everything for me, I feel a new beginning in my life.”

After doing research on all the "professionals" they had on the show revealing "the secret" to us are actually no one of any large respectable organization or history. There was a random school teacher.. and even a "Metaphysician"?!?! do you even know what a Metaphysician is? Think about it.

I felt that "The Secret" is a mix between a "Guilt-Crutch" for the middle class to not have to feel bad for people that have bad things happen to them or are in bad situations themselves. And also a mix between this theory that "If you think positive thoughts and "Ask, Believe and Receive" then you will get what ever it is you want. WTF!?! As I was told.. EVERYTHING required work.. you have to work to get where you are in life. Unless you were born into it.. you have yo bust your ass.

The movie was pretty much telling you that as long as you THINK and BEHAVE with a Truly positive mentality and visualize what you want in life.. that some supernatural force of Attraction (wich they kind of compared to quantum physics in the beginning of the movie for some kind of validation) will give you what you want. .and it will come to you as if you are a magnet of good things.

This movie is for people who believe greatly in Karma, and and it feeds on your gullibility to that premise and the movie tries to make you FEEL GOOD. So at the end you feel that this has changed your life in some way.

It really hasn't revealed anything other than trying to get you to buy the books.

This movie is not for people who are strong minded, self directed thinkers, and people who know that the universe is a chaotic place of chance, luck, and random events, that are driven and partially guided by your own ability to see and avoid such circumstances.

This movie to me.. uses the same groundwork that Scientology uses, and many organized religions today use.

And I am not telling you to NOT see this movie. cause I would be a fool to think any of my friends would be weak minded enough to just take my opinion alone on it.

I will give you a free copy to see so you can see for yourselves.. but I would feel terrible if you spend 30+ bucks on a film, that has no real cinematography, music, plot, character driven story elements.

Frustrated

So I turned 32 last week. I don't feel much older physically or mentally really. Emotionally... maybe. I noticed that care less about trivial things.

And when I say "care less about" it may be that I am just more picky about those things and not sure why.

Women: for some reason women have really meant nothing to me. Not sure why.. but when I look at them I don't see them as most other guys would. As I told my friend the other day.. when I start talking to women.. regardless of who they are... they would more likely annoy me before getting my interest. It isn't that most women are annoying.. I am just saying that i would reach a point of annoyance before I get interested. I feel this may have to do with my ex. I have been single for 6 months and I felt I was ready enough to move on after our mutual breakup. I guess I probably was ready, but wasn't fully prepared. At least that is what I think it is. Cause last weekend she went out with some guy on a group date to try and "get to know him better" you know.. the whole "beginning stages" of getting to date someone. That was the proverbial nail in the coffin. Not that I had reason to be upset. But it was a definitive "lets move on now" kinda thing. Well besides finding this out on Monday, on top of it being a bad Monday and on top of one of my female friends loosing my utmost respect because of her lack of willpower set me in a pretty irritable mood. A mood I am not used to feeling.

Friends: There are some friends that I care for a lot for. I hang with them regularly. Some how I feel as if the link is gradually weakening and I don't know why. It started with David.. and he stopped showing up because he started a new relationship.. which for some reason means he can no longer hang with friends. even on weekends when he isn't working. I know what it is to be in a relationship with a women that wants nothing more than your 100% attention. I dated one for along time. And I did what I wanted none the less... which could be why I am single now.. but I am not going to date an insecure woman, that NEEDS to have me around 24/7 to make herself happy.. All women should have their own friends. .be their own people and have their own shit together before involving themselves with me because I am a gamer, I have lots of friends and I am a social butterfly. I know this is nothing that would entice someone to date someone like me but I will not and do not bullshit people about my views. Hell reading my blogs can tell you that. Organized religion is for the weak willed and/or terribly frightened humans that can't grasp no life after death. I also don't believe in marriage. One day.. i MIGHT get married.. but again.. I would have to be with a girl for 6-8 years before even considering it.

My friend Craig seems distracted by something. He thought I was hiding something from him last week when I wasn't .. and I wasn't sure if that was misunderstood. but it just seems uncomfortable around me or my place. Could be my imagination, could be additional friends. His friend Tori has been hanging around with us a lot since he introduced her and I don't' know their full history together but maybe that is the trigger for it. But I can't help think it may be something with me.

So ya.. I am trying to have a good weekend with friends.. relaxation.