Pondering!

So I sit here listening to DCD. Downloading Windows XP themes, and submitting resumes to many online IT jobs.

I haven't posted in awhile. So I will update those who are interested; with the latest happenings in my life.

I am seeing a girl. She is not my girlfriend or anything like that; but we get along real well, and there is also chemistry. This is good because we flirt a lot.

I have no drawn or written anything in awhile and I am not sure why. My life is currently at a stand still. I am sort of lost in which direction I should take.

I have no worked on Paridine in a few weeks. That makes me feel a bit lazy and I don’t like feeling like I am dropping the ball on a project that has SOO much time and effort pumped into it. But then again 99% of the written docs in Paridine are written by me which makes me feel like I can take a break now and then since I am the only one doing the typing. Not that I blame the others involved for NOT typing the instructions. Out of me Dallas and Rene; I am the middle man. Dallas is the “HACK and SLASH KILL KILL KILL DIE DIE DIE” type of guy; while Rene is more of the “You enter the door to the north, the stench of mildew emanates from the wet dungeon walls.” kind of guy. That analogy might not make sense to most of you... but it makes perfect sense to me. ?

Well, I realized that I was “used” by this company I was working for, to get a particular job done at a high profile location within a certain deadline. The project was completed in time and there were these extra techs lying around with no work (me being one of them). Well what sort of irks me is that on the last day I was there I talked to “Dalton” who was my lead at the location and he said that Bank ONE (who was our high profile client) pays CompuCom (the company that used me) 40 bucks an hour for each tech that they have working there. I only say 17 bucks an hour of that $$$$; but that is fine because I liked the job and the money was enough for me. I just didn’t like how they used a background check as an excuse to NOT hire me because they didn’t’ have work and it sounded better than saying “we have no work for you 5 people we hired, sorry but bye”.

What can one do?

So I sit here… stressing about my car payment due next month, and where I will get money for me.

I will come up with something.

So I sit here looking at Art Bell’s website… and I wonder… IS IT ALL REAL?